Saturday, August 2, 2008
A heart felt desire.....
"Main jab bhi tumhare ghar ke samne se nikalta tha toh sochta tha ki kya main bhi kabhi is ghar mein ja sakunga.."
aur fir woh tumhari thehri hui hansi... jis mein
These were your words.... when once we were talking on phone and you said so.. i felt a pang in my heart.. i didn't say anything 'coz i had nothing to say that time.. i made up my mind that this time when you will come to India i'll try my level best that you can come to my home..
"haan tum bhi is ghar mein aa sakte ho.. jab tumhara man kare.. bina kahe .. bina puche.. aur koi bhi bura nahin manega.. mujhe behad khushgi hogi..."
The day you came to my house.. i wanted to see you coming from the corner of road so came out of house .. but when you turned the corner for my home.. i was so shy to face you.. i couldn't see you..
"itni sharam aati hai mujhe tumse..naa jane kyun.. jabki main tumhare se hazaaron baatein karti hun.. kuch din mili bhi hun.. phir bhi na jaane kyun.. tumse .."
when you entered and took seat on sofa..
i looked at you, when , for a second, your eyes were not on me.. you looked good..I wanted this day to be the memorable one in my life.. i know every minute spent with you is a sweet memory.. but this one became really so special not to be summed up in few words.. still i want to tell you...
vo aaye ghar me.n hamaare Khudaa kii qudrat hai
kabhi ham un ko kabhii apane ghar ko dekhate hai.n(Galibh)
When mum went to prepare lunch.. i came slowly towards you.. kissed you on cheeks and ran off so that you cannot hold me in your arms..(though i desperately wanted it...).....
The way you were sitting in front of me on deewan and having lunch..
the way you were talking to ma..
"kaash woh waqt thehar jaata .. main tumhe jaane na deti.. rok leti.. mazburi tumhari.. jaana hi tha.. na roke rukna tha.."