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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Wish 'm going to make.....

I am missing My lord from from past one month and have been feeling so irritated... went mad at him.. but he is uncomplaining.. see how poor i am .. i cannot do anything for him.. why don't You come up with some idea.. always it's me who has to take pains..I want to sense how he must be feeling after jam packed day.. i wish i could do something for him.. at times.. when he sounds so tired i don't know why what happens and why it happens.. but a kind of affection for him raises from the depths of my heart and wish to lull him to sleep.. i want him to lay his head on my lap so that i can run my fingers in his air.. and soothe down the nerves that have been raking whole day with stupid charters, ships, captains, and blah blah blah..... after all 'm a women.. why i won't feel such a motherly .. protecting and loving kind of feeling in my bosom...

I really am mean to fight with my poor tired lord.. but i miss him so badly nowadays.. just tell me.. how to survive like this all of a sudden.. when erstwhile he used to be available all time..and now not...

I want to talk to him.. be with him.. feel the life of love.. and 'm here slitting like a forlorn wife who waits for her husband to come back home....My dreams seems shattered.. my wishes seems will go unfulfilled.. my words seems will go unheard..... you are my alter ego.. my other half... i love you ... and i miss you.. i want to feel that touch once again.. (When at my place.. you hugged me.. i will be blessed with life...)

You know what.. I have been trying to look for a slight hint from your side that you want to talk to me.. you miss me.. but your way of not saying things..
make me go wearied..
tumhe pata hai.... han woh toh tumhe pata hai hi .. fir bhi...
my day goes bad when i miss you and want you so bad.. It seems as if hell has broken loose in my life.. i behave erratically..
i talk all nonsense.. and depressed things... and give other other reasons.. even when i know .. i'm missing you and not getting how to say this.. so behaving like a Bethlehem inmate..

I don't know how to tell you 'm missing.. though i'm saying this here.. but you know.. na what i mean.. i mean 'm writing and know that you will read.. but it's to tell you while talking on phone.. and when i fail to do so, i go mad.. i act insane.. erratic, lunatic... and the list goes on......I feel so shy to admit this.... and you talking to me makes me happy like anything... have you ever noticed? It happens when you center your world around someone.... and this someone.. my lord .. you are many miles away.... know not how many.........
Want to meet.. anyhow....whatever may happen..
i'll come..

wherever you will be...I want to go crazy for you.. i'm already..
i want to do crazy things for you...
I want to give you something that nobody on earth can give you...

Once i told you na.. ki i'll leave you someday /but you dare not forget me.. you didn't and you never let me go....Now , I won't say remember me when 'm gone.. and cherish my memories whole life long.. I want to wish you to......






....Be with me in life and death...in adversity and prosperity...in shanty and in palace....in land and in water....in highs and lows....

Your Princess