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Monday, November 17, 2008

Few Abstractions....





I am what i don't look like.. i don't speak like.. but what i write like....what i read like... what i feel like.... what i love like..... I'm Amor... and see the way i love.. and you will know what i am....... and only whom i love knows what i am.. lest the world is already a gone case... ohh me .. noway!!! .. i'm the one who lives in smoke... and will be gone like smoke....

don't teach me.. i came unscathed with knowledge..... and will go unscathed with it...... I'm no civilized.. and will never love to be so......Life is for living and I'll have to live as long as I'm ordained to.. have to do some important tasks.. I'm being ordered to fulfill certain duties.. i have been given a set of rules... my blood has some tint of that old worn out tradition... and have to bear the baggage till my last breath.. the baggage of mortality...

I'm a woman and I'll always be a woman.. and will always be there to fulfill all the duties assigned to me.. I'm earth.. will bear fruits of mankind.. bring forth progeny of mankind with its own seed.....I'm a mother will prune the plants and make them stand erect and stalwart....

Thanks for everything you gave me...






Life has always been interesting to me and seems it's going to be more soon... as i see some turbulences going on .... something.. some change is going to take place in my mood this year.. aaha a long awaited thing... i love to change.. i love to be different.. i love to be what no one can ever be.. wayward.. gypsy.... not heeding to life still staying with it all the time.. my life.. my God.. my Books... my Love... my wishes... my dreams... my thoughts... my insanity.... my whims... are my constant companion.. and still i look for some solace... like a seamen who travels and unravels the vast horizons and fathom the depths of oceans.. and still feels thirsty for some more.....

I'm in a temper when my heart want to sway with every music... tap my feet to beats.... fly... and dance in the air.... float with water.... like a leaf fallen from its branch and travel far far regions..... like a canoe drifted with wind ...... all alone in the sea... with waters green... green green green.... with sky pink... pink pink pink... with earth.... blue.... blue blue blue.....

Let me do something before another season dawns upon me...... it's winter... when i can again place my cheeks against cold wall and feel that winter is here.... when i can walk with watery eyes..... chill that froze my senses...... i would like to have some beautiful gloves this year... and will buy boots... gonna shed some kilos... and flaunt myself to the heaven above.....see Lord what plans i have for this winter.. I'm planning.. can You believe this... it's too good to be true.. that Nicky is planning.. yes I'm indeed.. and I'm going to tell You what my plans are this winter...

Love me for being naughty again.... but i want to relive few moments that i spent with myself few years back.... want to reiterate some forgotten plans.. and motives.... whims.. and dreams... and fulfill them... color the things in bright hues..... in hues very imaginative.. in hues very new... in hues very loving.... in hues that are very me.... true to me.. true to what Nicky is....

down the memory lane.... few years back... Ii loved what all was pink.... I, now, am loving what all is of hues very sweet.. delicious.... aahaa......

I dare You.... and i dare my stars... this is what You have always been asking for... lo here i give this to You... You come along when i set off. lest You will lose me.... buy do not worry I'll be back .. back with life... of new colors....

Ohhhhh I Love You... I have always Loved You...I am in Love with You once more with fresh vigor and colors of course!!.....

I Love You Lord......Thanks for bringing me forth!!!... :).....Thanks for being my constant companion!!!...... :)........ Thanks for sending him back...... Thanks for blessing us.. i know You are Happy too... aaha here goes this tear trickling down to my cheeks .. to my lips.. and wishing him world's all happiness.... keep him happy always.... he loves You too... he believes in You..... Let my all happiness... my goodies be his.... I don't need anything... just make him happy always.... And, You know what..... I belong to him.. You told me.. but i fought with You that day... but, now I'm happy that You were right and I acted silly in not believing in You... Hey Hey Hey... no more silly talks... Got some work to do....

Love You loadzzz.....!!!!!
May his life be bed of roses....... and I'll prick thorns with my hands if there will be any!!...

Hasta la vista