Tuesday, April 28, 2009

My Heart Is Beating

Julie- My Heart Is Beating Lyrics

This is one of my favorite songs that I keep humming almost all the time at the back of my throat without letting sounds come up. I feel shy to sing it loud. First, I don't have good voice and second, what others will say if I sing this as a lovelorn maiden.

This is for you!

My heart is beating, keeps on repeating
I'm waiting for you
My love encloses a plot of roses
And when shall be then our next meeting
Cause love you know
That time is fleeting, time is fleeting
Time is fleeting

My heart is beating, keeps on repeating
I'm waiting for you
My love encloses a plot of roses
And when shall be then our next meeting
Cause love you know
That time is fleeting, time is fleeting
Time is fleeting

Oh when I look at you
The blue of heaven seems to be deeper blue
And I can swear that
God himself seems to be looking through

Zu zu zu zu ru zu,

I'll never part from you
And when shall be then our next meeting
Cause love you know
That time is fleeting, time is fleeting
Time is fleeting

Spring is the season
That drops the reason of lovers who are truly true
Young birds are mating
While I am waiting, waiting for you
Darling you haunt me, say do you want me
And if it is so, when are we meeting
Cause love you know
That time is fleeting, time is fleeting
Time is fleeting

My heart is beating, keeps on repeating
I'm waiting for you
My love encloses a plot of roses
And when shall be then our next meeting
Cause love you know
That time is fleeting, time is fleeting
Time is fleeting

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselves. ~Martin Luther King, Jr., Strength to Love, 1963
Man is never alone. Acknowledged or unacknowledged, that which dreams through him is always there to support him from within. ~Laurence van der Post
It’s really too risky to expose yourself and confess what you might be hording up close to your heart. There are some confessions I would like to make about myself. But, this doesn’t mean that when asked about, I’ll be agreeing to any of them. This is a tag I had been given to complete on facebook and I didn’t get how to post it there so here it gets its real place in my blog!
1. I hate watching people while they eat. I just cannot withstand someone making noise while chewing. It becomes irritating so much so that I feel like leaving the food then and there.
2. I delude myself every now and then and hate it terribly when someone comes up tutoring me about reality.
3. I feel hurt to admit that I care or love. It feels as if I’m being exposed in the public. It hurts my ego.
4. I’m a staunch feminist and hate men speaking in loud tones with women. I can never tolerate male dominance in any sphere of life.
5. I love travelling, photography, and swimming and none of these I have ever done in my life till date- regret.
6. I know my gait is an eye-turner feature of my personality but off late it has made me too self conscious while walking.
7. I don’t like institutions, inhibitions, religions, orthodoxy
8. I love water so much so that whenever I see someone drinking I too want to have it
9. I don’t like travelling in bus just because I hate odor that prevails in it and to avoid other people’s hand, or bag or stole touching me. I try best to avoid any kind of physical touch with unknown people. Once I travelled via bus and back home I took bath twice; I had a whim that I have started smelling like other people.
10. I love Dolls. I played with them till 10th standard and I still keep looking for some good ones to buy for my collection
11. I rejoice in being called as an anarchist
12. I love reading and writing
13. I cannot do what’s being forced upon. I can say yes once just because of the concern for the person but I can never be happy and it tortures me like hell.
14. I don’t know how to say ‘no.’
15. I had a crush, the first and last one on my classmate in 11th. I just liked him but mum said stop talking to him and I stopped. We hardly spoke to each other for a month during whole 11th and 12th duration. I was too idiot to not to even steal a glance at him as mum has told me to stop talking to him. He was a favorite amongst girls and just because I stopped talking, first he tried a lot, but on seeing my reluctance, he opted to keep teasing me till last day of our school. I, at times feel I shouldn’t have stopped talking to him.
16. I love my reflection in the mirror and believe me I can spend whole day watching myself.
17. I want to try drugs
18. I can never be taught. If someone tries then I become too incorrigible and stubborn to pay heed to anything being said.
19. I don’t like sex-less Austen novels yet I would love o be one of those young ladies like that of her novels.
20. I hate people who consider sex as something not to talk about. I would like to suggest castrations for them. I just cannot tolerate people who maintain double standards.
21. I don’t like exhibitions of any kind. Be it of art or emotion.
22. I make religion of everything I see, believe, live with, or cherish. It, just have to touch my heart and I get into the soul of it.
23. I don’t like people following traditions just for the sake of being called as good human beings. I believe one should be adaptive to changes taking place. It’s not necessary to follow stale traditions just to please others.
24. If you love, then love selflessly.
25. I wish I had a genie. Life could have been better for me.
26. I know there are mermaids, I was one of them. This is why I love water so much.
27. I believe in spirits and wish talk with some of them, especially of women who struggled for Women empowerment.
28. I click well with either kids or old age people.
29. I’m an extremist. I don’t like middle way for anything.
30. I can be violent if I feel my desires and wishes are being suppressed on one or the other pretext. I lose control over my senses completely and can be too dangerous.
31. My motto: Live & let live. And, if not then I dare you!
32. I love myself when drunk. I look like a weeping angel.
33. I want to see the place where Frankenstein was found half-dead and ater that he narrates his story to the ship’s captain
34. I want to perform ‘nrityanatika’ with my life partner.
35. I consider art as supreme power-it’s orgasmic whether performing or visual one.
36. I have an inferiority complex that I don’t look beautiful
37. I don’t like my obsessive nature but can’t help either.
38. I don’t like wearing spectacles. It reminds me of those days when I used to look like an ugly duckling.
39. I have never hurt anyone intentionally. It’s just that I have no reason to give my case if ever I did wrong someone.
40. I am not afraid of anything in the world except my dark moods.
41. I cannot sleep if I see shadows. I have a dread of shadows.
42. I want to get my portrait done in oil posing as an Aphrodite.
43. I don’t believe in ‘Virginity.’ The word itself seems phony to me.
44. I contradict myself very often.
45. I love talking about myself, day dreaming, create imaginary people, and proclaim myself a writer in the line of Virginia Woolf and Joseph Conrad.
46. I love eating ‘Orange stick’ ice-cream ad drink Fanta as it changes my tongue and lips from pink to orange.
47. I admire only one literary character- Rhett Butler (Gone With the Wind)
48. I don’t look for inspiration and do not consider anyone as a role model.
49. I cannot tolerate breach of trust- that’s the end of every relationship.
50. I know I’m proud, obstinate, stubborn, and haughty and do not wish to change myself.
51. I like talking. It sometimes seems to me that I talk to make myself aware of life lest I lose myself into an utter oblivion.
52. I gorge on food when emotionally perplexed and then vomit it out by fingering my throat.
53. I would like to know what it is to have sex with women, being a woman. I like woman because they are really the most beautiful creation of God with their curvaceous body, winsome smile, dreamy eyes, silken locks, delicate skin, and arousing breathe.
54. I want to get married since I was 8 years old. Don’t ask me why!
55. I don’t know how to use fork & knife. I never tried to learn this because I cannot enjoy eating thus. I hate to use them when out on some formal lunch and most of the time I skip the use.
56. During night my spirits are high and I feel surge of extreme energy within me.
57. I like charcoal drawn pictures and black & white photography
58. I want to build a wood house with my hands
59. I don’t have anything to do with anyone in the world. I never bother people and ready to do anything, even if I have to go out of my way. I just want peace, ingenuity, and intellectual mind. No chameleons!
There is lot more to confess on but I think, that will be too heavy to digest in one blog post.