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Monday, June 8, 2009

First Mail- A Confession





My first mail to Deepak when I was so desperate to tell him what all I feel for him and wished to receive positive response. I was so fond of this sms language those days.


December 31, 2005


so, my dear frn....wht do u want....u're mkng me lose cntct wth d outer wrld....my frns hv alrdy strtd complaining tht ...i'm alwys busy..dn't spend time wth them..n u knw wht..'m unanswrbl to them...it's b'coz of u.....rather say it's u who tks my whole time......

smtms i wonder ...wht the hell is goin on..why do i tlk to u a hell lot...who'r u...no one to me...jus a stranger...whom i've nvr met wth...u knw smtms ths vry thought of ur being a stranger to me tickles my imagination.....

u knw wht..aftr smtime..may b in ayr or so i'll gt mrrd..i knw..u're no one to me..bt ..still i feel a strong affinity towards u...it was vry unknown to me before.......u cn't b the person ...who'll tk away my heart...who'll roused me impatient in the nites....no ...i dn't blv ths...rather say i dn't wanna blv ths...i dn't feel nethng for u...nt evn a.....i donno

do remembr me.....wn i'm gone frm ur life.....

u might hv had mny frns bt 'm nt ur frn...'m nt evn ur sm1 spcl...no one to u..bt u're bcmng smone to me...slowly...swiftly...

i'll alwys remember u....as a dream...a trance-beautiful..soothing to my senses...

whn i tlk to u i feel myslf like a ........