Sitting on a hospital bed and looking out of the glass window pane. Seems , I am closed in a glass chamber built on the top of some hill.
There is no sign of baby coming via normal labor pains. I am sacred of cesarean.
Injections, tabs, drip, and now 50-50 chances of C-Section... What's all this going on? They say, I'll forget all the pain once I have my baby in my arms.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Hospital is one of the most detested places in the entire world for me. Yet, I am forced to be here for some time now. Because one of the most beautiful thing is going to happen here... my child! I just hope things go well since doc says I won't be having normal labour i.e. have to undergo induced labour. Artificial pains would be given right from this evening 5:00pm -9:00 pm. and then second dose of the injection would be given in morning 9:00 am till 12:00 pm. if still no labour pains then doc would go for C-section.
I just hope Labour gets started on its own and I get spared from Caesarean.
Mum and Deepak are here with me constantly. I just am so happy to have such a doting and caring husband.
If I haven't had sound sleep from last 4 months, then it's him too has who has accompanied my sleepless nights talking and jesting with me, cooking for me.
Mum is really scared because she had bad experiences of caesarean and it's very obvious that no mother would ever sit patiently while her daughter is undergoing severe pains and troubles.
I had never been injected as per my knowledge before marriage (except those blood donations I did during college). And, now, I’m being injected many a times in a single day. Tauba!
Doctor Bindu Garg, of Neelkanth Infertility Centre (multi-super speciality hospitals) is a wonderful lady. Very frank and explained all the issues and complicacies related to my delivery in a very good manner. Deepak is contented and not scared anymore.
I had been injected with Drotin so that false pains get subsided and true labor pains get their way. But, that was of no avail so I had been given two injections of Buscopan last night. I had to face terrible cramps in night but those subsided in morning. Duh! L
Sunday, December 19, 2010
We are an average earning family with not much of the financial resources to back up in the times of dire necessities. We are going through financial crunch with upcoming baby expenses. Yet, we love to feed a stray dog without any reservations. We have kind of adopted him. It’s just that instead of giving him home to sleep, we allow him to stay wherever he likes but come to us at the time of meals. We regularly provide him with three meals a day like we do for ourselves.
My husband, who earlier used to be afraid of Dogs, has now grown fond of this one particular. He has named him Chulbul and first thing that he does after coming back from office is to meet Chulbul, give him his dinner, walk with him in during late evening hours for some time and then come back to have his own dinner. It’s lovely to see that how this dog has become a part of our life. We just cannot have our meals without feeding him first. He is a nature’s child so we don’t want him to be tied to a collar and chain instead it’s good to see that he is free unlike those pets who are chained and wait for their owners to take them out for their daily ablutions. We play with him, feed him, love him, and I even make sure that he has teaks and lice free body.
We cannot offer food for all the stray animals in our locality but I am contented that we are doing our bit. May be, with God’s grace on us we would be able to offer a good shelter and regular meals to as much stray animals that come in our view.
There is also one woman in Gurgaon DLF Phase III, who every morning feeds almost all the stray dogs she passes by. God bless her and help her in her endeavor of providing food to poor stray animals.
Ø I so much wish to see people turning vegetarian one day!
Ø Be kind to poor animals
Ø Stop using animals a guinea pig
Ø Skinning animals to save one’s skin
Friday, December 10, 2010
Therefore shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.
We have been married for a year now and it seems to me as we have always been together in this relationship. There had never been first sight, first meeting, engagement, or marriage. We have just been together since ages. Love is what makes you blind, this is what people have to say. Seems love is something that matures you as an individual and make you know various facets of your own personality that goes ignored hitherto until or unless you are wedded to a person. Only then you come to know yourself in a very different manner. Your partner is the one who makes you learn and know life in many wonderful ways and then together you create a beautiful world to live in.
In this brief period of our conjugal relation, he has made me fall in love with him many times. Yes, this is what a marriage does to you- makes you fall in love with the same person again and again; sometimes for several reasons and many a times just for nothing.
I loved him so we got married. Now, I cannot imagine a moment without him. I need him all the time. It doesn’t matter what he is busy into but his presence makes me comfortable and lends a solace that nobody and nothing can ever.
Now, this first year of my married life made me know certain facts, brought out my varied potentials on fore, and made me understand Deepak & myself in different light
Ø He is not exactly what he had been before marriage in all the manners. Telephonic conversations or online chats never allow you to know the real person behind the chat id. It is when you live together you get to know each other better.
Ø He is not as calm as he seems to be. Not only I came to know of real him but I got rendezvous with my hidden self. I never knew how intolerant I am of traditional norms that bound this society. Of course I had always been a rebel against social norms yet never flared up so intensely the way I usually get after marriage. May be I am wrong or maybe he too goes out of his way to make me do things which I detest the most in the world. But, at the end of the day he knows this very well, I do what he wishes me to do. I just want him to consider that I too can be right at times.
Ø It’s not all about negative things. I never knew I can love cooking so much which I used to detest before marriage. I never cooked at my home; never my mum had any leisure & pleasure to savor the food I make. Now, I cook well rather I love cooking so much. Usually, I don’t approve of everyone’s eating manners but I love watching over him –the way he enjoys food.
Ø He too gets angry which I thought could not be imagined even. But, he knows how to handle his temper which I have never known in my case. (He usually calms down when he sees that he won’t be able to cool down my anger, lol! Cunning chap!)
Ø He opts for midway and I being an extremist wants wither this way or that.
Ø He gives preference to honor due for an age or a relation whereas I arbitrate on the basis of what is right and what is wrong. No compensation for age or the relation.
Ø I live in a moment and he plans for future. He worries for future to such an extent that he is letting his present pass by. He is not enjoying life. I want him to live for the moment sometimes, the way I do. You never know when “the bell tolls for thee…” so live every moment of your life. Because after ten years from now he will be regretting for the time he lost wondering and worrying so much. He will look at his matronly-matured-wife and feel sad wish “I would have given her best of my youthful days.J”
Ø He is a caring husband who has never left my side even in my darkest of moods. He endured all my mood swings with a smile only fuming over them sometimes.
Ø He is mature and not impulsive like me.
Ø He has misunderstood me in so many matters and is reluctant to consider my point of view. Despite this foretasted fact we come to a conclusion that reconciles us.
Ø We both share love and concern for stray animals. And, this is something I like best in him.
I Like, Adore, & Love-
Ø I like it when he says he cannot imagine his life without me.
Ø I like it when he clicks photographs of me when I am asleep. Sometimes I am wide awake yet pretend to be sleeping because I love him watching over me.
Ø I like it when he enjoys his meals. This is what I promised him before marriage that “I’ll ensure you have good food every day.”
Ø I simply adore him when I feel that he needs me as much as I do need him.
Ø I like his honesty, ingenuity, care & concern.
Ø I hate it when you make background music while having meals and do so intentionally all the more to tease me.
Ø I don’t like when you give silly reasons to prove yourself right and say things that hurts me a lot.
Ø I detest him letting people take advantage of him unnecessarily. Especially when those situations could be avoided and averted.
The Verse Is Dedicated To You-
Aasman mein jab tak sitare rahenge
Hum ek dusre ke sahare rahenge
Nazdikiyan yah on duriyaan
Bas pyaar hi rahega darmiyaan
Rahon mein nahin dhup ka ghum
Thandi chaya dega hardum
Hamara yeh pyaar bhara rishta
· I have revised the last line of the verse which was: “pavitra rishta/tere mere man ka”
We are soon going to be Mum & Dad, and we will always try to be best parents. Our child would be the fruit of love that we have for each other and we will ensure its safety and good upbringing. Amen!