I haven’t scribbled in the journal, on blog, or even on any page; was very upset with myself. Had no idea what all is going on seemed there is nothing more to talk about. I have been involved at places so many, events umpteen yet had nothing in mind. I was everywhere but never in mind and soul. My soul went away from me, wandered over the yellow lanes, where streets seems to be laden with the dust of forgetfulness, carcass of life lurking in all the nooks and crannies, and that dull, obtuse landscape seemed to have diffused right into my heart without nudging me and made home.
Had been through lots of ups and downs, empathized, sympathized yet bored. Felt a if I’m losing grip of reality-while the only reality I perceived till date was only me.
It's heart wrenching to see yourself torn between you and you - the two YOU of your one physical entity.